Well then.

I guess yahoo doesn't work at school, so I'll just write it on here.

I guess I don't know how to feel, because on one hand, its my fault because I'm constantly asking Sidney why she's with her and stuff. But I also don't try to make Sidney an asshole when she's around Tashy. I wasn't aware that her behavior changed much from one person to the next, but I guess I wouldn't know. I feel like such an asshole. And what sucks about this is that if I try not to come over when Tashy is there, I'll either never see sidney or Sidney will just say she isn't there and when I get there, Tashy will have just shown up.  And its not that I don't want Sidney to be happy, I mean, thats the last thing I want. But.. well I don't know. I just don't want to feel like its my fault that they have no relationship. But then again, Tashy does this with everyone of Sidneys friends. First it was Nicole and then chelsea and now I guess its my turn. Oh well.

Conner and I are also arguing all the time. And my mom. And my Dad is being a jerk again. Not that he ever stopped, but it wasn't so bad for a while. I guess school time is when all of this happens again.

Wow.

Summer is just ungodly. Hah.

I miss my school, my friends, my regular life. Its like everything has been put on hold now that summer is here. Its weird. I had a dream last night that school was back in and I had already picked my classes and everything. When I woke up I was so happy for a little while. :p Oh well. Only a month and a half left.

Anyways, I have a ton of good news. :D Sidney is back, for one. I'm not bored or disgusted by Junior yet, so thats good and I'm moving to a bigger house, with my own room finally, in about three weeks. I'm so happy. The rent 30 dollars less than this house and it has WAY more space. God, I can't wait. And it has two bathrooms. Thank god. Every time I have to use the bathroom in this house, someone else does too, so I get kicked out and I have to wait. Wooh :) Two bathrooms and my very own room. YES. Also, my cat, Ferdinand(named after Sidney, hah. Of course.) is about to have kittens. I felt her stomach today and I could feel them moving around and kicking. That means they'll be born soon. I'm so freaking excited. My friend Holly is going to be taking one of the kittens after they're old enough. I decided I'm naming one of them Billy Maise and another Michael Jackson. Its weird, yeah I know. But oh well. I'm so excited. AH! I can't believe I can feel them moving around. I can't really tell how many, but its some where between four and seven. Thats a lot of kittens, hah :D So excited.

assignments.

I just did like five blogs yesterday. I don't really know which ones I'm missing anymore.. I've been trying to go through all of the ones that I've done, but I can't tell which ones go to which, I didn't always put the question at the beginning of the post. Oh dear.. 

I hate my mother. I really do.. I mean, I love her, but she is REALLY bi-polar. And she loves to start fights. Doesn't matter who with, she just likes to fight. Its so frustrating. I've seen my friends once this summer so far and she never wants to drive me anywhere or pick me up and today I finally got her to give me a ride and now she's telling me she doesn't remember agreeing to that and when I tried explaining what we had talked about last night, she started getting mad, eventually it turned into a huge fight and now she's telling me she doesn't want to talk to me. I'm so tired of dealing with this. I just want to hang out with my fucking friends. The only way I'm able to hang out with them is if I find a place to stay for a little while but she doesn't want me to stay anywhere. How the hell am I supposed to hang out with them? Everything I try to do to make it so she doesn't have to drive she still says no to. Then, when I first asked she apparently thought it was nice to tell me that the only reason she says no all the time is because I always have an attitude, that turned into an argument too. All she ever does with me lately is argue and bitch and yell. I'm so fucking frustrated. She makes me want to shoot myself in the face.

Mosquitos!

I too, am allergic to mosquito's. I used to swell up really bad when I lived in Florida. When they bit me near my eyes it would swell up so bad that I would resemble a very skinny Quasi Motto(spelling?). Its not so bad anymore, but it does make me feel like my whole body is covered with mosquito bites and they still swell more than most people's do. Oh well.

The worst thing though is that I won't have school anymore! School is like a second home for me, and although I'm equipped with many means in which to reach my "support team", its still not the same. I like having a set place to go and things to do that don't really change. When I don't have that, my schedule and my mind just kind of disengage. So I'm usually not on time, I have extremely weird sleeping habits, even for me. I also eat either a lot less or a lot more. So when you guys see me next year, I'll look like I've lossed a lot. I have a feeling that I'll be loosing my appetite this summer.

The best thing is that its warm and I can tan naturally. I don't really like summer a whole lot. My favourite season in Fall and I miss school too much. Hahahah.. What a weirdo.

Therapy.

Oh, gosh, how I love my therapists. Yes, I do mean that to be plural. Hahahah.. I have a personal therapist and a family therapist. Such fun. I have two meetings with the family therapist this week. One is just me and my mom and the other is just me and my dad. I would rather drink that whole cartoon of rotten milk that was in my closet-bedroom thing for weeks than go to the session with my dad. I know for a fact that it will no go well. No matter what I say or do, he'll walk out of the office pissed off because every week, he's told by the therapist that his rules are too strict, too harsh and too uncaring. He's also told every week that he doesn't really actually have the right to parent the way he thinks he does, considering he was there for, well, all my life. I suppose this may be hard to digest, but he needs to figure it out somehow. I'm sure its hard to deal with, but its also hard to stand by a window when you're five, waiting for dad that never shows up. Hm.

Men and Twighlight.

I think its awesome that a guy was able to proclaim his love for twighlight. I personally think the series sucks, especially compared to the Harry Potter series. Which, yes, I have wrote many a fanfic for. Whether they were good or not, I have no idea. But anyways, for a guy to admit that he likes something "girly" can be hard. Especially if their friends are quite..ehhmm..."macho". I don't really have much else to say about this particular subject. I haven't really read the books.. I suppose that doesn't really matter.. I don't know what else to say right now.

Myspace. Hahhahh,.

Then, please share with me your own tales of myspace and social networking sites. How frequently do you witness things like cyber bullying or identity theft, as mentioned in the story? 

I've never really personally experienced identity theft of any sort. But this girl I used to be friends with would hack all the "nerdy girls" myspaces and change their backgrounds to really profane images and write rude comments to people, pretending to be them and then change the passwords and never touch it again. Then when the girls got new myspaces, she would do it again. I used to tell her not to do it when i was around, but a lot of the times she did it anyways. I think thats the only time I've ever really run into anything like that.