Oh gosh.

Well, its been a long few days for me recently. So much happened and I don't understand why it had to all play out the way it did. Its so stupid. Now I won't be able to go to school for two weeks, if I'm lucky. I hope its only two weeks. Oh gosh. I tried so fucking hard to make them wait until summer... no one would listen. Its going to be really hard to jump back into things with only two weeks left when I get back. I miss school. I miss it a lot. I miss my friends and my teachers and my routine. I have a very specific routine, and I don't feel right when it gets disturbed like it is right now. Its like the world is off balance or something. I hate this. And I don't even need to be at this stupid thing. The doctor said I could wait until summer. He told me like a million times, probably because I kept asking, but... well you get the point. I could've waited until summer.


Larraid is officially my mentor. yay.

I called school today as soon as I got out. John answered. It ws nice to hear from him. I love John, He's my favourite. He asked how I was doing and how lon I would be gone for and stuff. I almost cried. School is like a second home for me, and I just want to be home. Thats all I want. Its all I need to be happy. I need my routines and school... Oh gosh, I'm going to cry. Hahah.. I get to come during seventh hour tomorrow though. I'll probably get there around four, just to pop in and say hi. I haven't seen anyone for days.. I need to talk to Larraid about all thats happened. Thats why I called today, but I guess he had a sub. Which is weird, because he emailed my mom and told her that I could call him today if I needed too. I miss everyone so much! Sidney was so worried. I tried so hard to call her while I was in the ER. But right when I figured out her home number, the doctor told me I couldn't be on the phone. I miss everyone! I especially miss John and Larraid and Becky and Sidney and Randy and Nicole. Booker too! Hahaha, he makes me laugh whenever I'm sad. Oh dear.. Just thinking about everyone makes me so nostalgic. Its so dumb. Its only really been five days. But I feel like its been months. And I still don't get to fully come back for two more weeks.

I still get to come every day at like four though. Everyone will most likely be gone, but I'll just be coming to talk to Larry mostly, and John.. Tim even said he missed me! Hahah. I miss him too.

Oh, and I think I still get to go to prom. I don't know what the deal is for afterwards, but I still get to go at least. I'm very excited.


You know whats really dumb, I'm at my dads house! I think most everyone agreed that he was my main stresser, and yet they made me go home with him! How stupid. I have to stay here until friday morning, then I go to that thing and my mom will pick me up when I'm done.. afer that I guess we'll speed on over to school, talk to Sidney and such and maybe go home with her, not sure yet. Well, probably not go home with her right away, unless mom picks up my phone before she comes to get me, then she could drop me off at school and I'll go home with Sidney and help her get ready. I have no idea. I just want to be home in my own bed with my own stuff surrounded by my family and friends and be back in my own school. I don't think I've ever missed anything so much.