1. Hindsight
2. A Diamond and a Tether
3. You Remind me of Home
4. My Mirror Speaks
5. Styrofoam Plates
6. Tiny Vessels
7. Expo '86
Well, I love picking out theme songs for people, and I find new ones for myself all the time. But the ones listed above seem to be the recurring theme songs for myself that I always agree with.
1. Hindsight- Three wasted years, standing still
As you opened up, 18 miles wide
On this country drive
I can't keep up
'cause you're so far gone
And it's all too much in hindsight
Three wasted years, wasting time
As the hunger pains grow inside
I can't keep up
'cause you're so far gone
And it's all too much in hindsight
This is because always look back on things that I've done and think of how bad or embarrassing or dumb I was being. I love it and it usually makes me smile, but at the same time, there are memories that I was I didn't remember because sometimes it really is just too much for me. Which also might be why I don't remember half my life. Ahahah..
2. A Diamond and a Tether- Pity, take pity on me
Because I’m not half the man that I should be
Always turning to run
From the people I should not be afraid of
And darling, you should know
That I have fantasies about being alone
It’s like love is a lesson
That I can’t learn
So I make the same mistakes at each familiar turn
Chorus
I know you can’t hold out forever
Waiting on a diamond and a tether
From a boy who won’t swim
Who won’t dip his toe in
Just to keep you here with him
I’ve got this habit I abhor
When we go out, I’m always watching the door
As if there’s someone I’m going to see
Who could out do the things that you do to me
Chorus
I know you can’t hold out forever
Waiting on a diamond and a tether
From a boy who won’t fly
Who won’t take to the skies
If he thinks you’re about to say goodbye
Pity, take pity on me
Because I’m not half the man that I should be
And I don’t blame you, you’ve had enough
With all these empty promises and countless bluffs
Chorus
I know you can’t hold out forever
Waiting on a diamond and a tether
From a boy who won’t jump
When he’s falls in love
He just stands with his toes on the edge
And he waits for it to disappear again
This one is because I always, always make the same mistakes when it comes to relationships. I think thats the best that I can put it. The song explains it almost to the T. Whenever I'm in a relationship, I always am looking for someone better. Or I'll find someone I really, really like and then when it comes to being with them for real, I always back down. I'm just not very good at this relationship thing. Ahahahh..
3. You Remind me of Home-
You remind me of home: the paint cracks when the water leaks
from the rusty pipes that are just beneath my feet
You remind me of home: the heater's warm but fills the room with a
potpourri of dust and gas fumes
You remind me of home: a broken bed with dirty sheets that creaks
when I am shifting in my sleep
You remind me of home: in a suburban town with nothing to do,
patiently waiting for something to happen
But the foundation is crumbling and becoming one with the ground
while you lay there in slumber...
You're wasting your lie
You remind me of home: sitting on a thrift store couch, I'm trying toget this all down
This song just reminds me of all my memories that I have with my ex, Tim and some old friends and all the things we promised each other and all the things we said we'd do and obviously aren't going to do now, considering we don't talk anymore. But occasionally I see something or smell something that reminds me of them and the two years that I was with Tim. Mostly this song just makes me very nostalgic.
4. My Mirror Speaks- With every sun that sets I am feeling more
Like a stranger on a foreign shore
With an eroding beach disappearing from underneath
And when my mirror speaks it never minces words
Cause these eyes don’t shine half as bright
As they used to do and they haven’t for quite a while
Cause I’m a man who hides from all that binds
And a mess of fading lines
And there’s a tangled thread inside my head
With nothing on either end
I always fall in love with an open door
With a horizon on an endless sea
As I look around the ones who were standing
right in front of me
And then my mirror speaks with a reverence
Like a soldier I can’t command
It sees a frightened child in the body of a full-grown man
And he’s a man who hides from all that binds
And a mess of fading lines
And there’s a tangled thread inside his head
With nothing on either end
There’s nothing on either end
A new position for a different view
And nothing changes but the slightest hues
And I am standing face to face
With a man who hides from all that binds
And a mess of fading lines
And there’s a tangled thread inside his head
With nothing on either end
I’m a man who hides from all that binds
And a mess of fading lines
And there’s a tangled thread inside my head
With nothing on either end
(repeat)
There’s nothing on the ends
No, there’s nothing on the ends
I would say this song represents the way my mind works and the way that I think and function. Especially the Chorus, the tangled thread with nothing on either ends is definitely how my brain is. Ahahah :)
5. Styrofoam Plates- there's a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes: i threw them to sea but a gust blew them backwards and the sting in my eyes
that you then inflicted was par for the course just as when you were living.
it's no stretch to say you were not quite a father but a donor of seeds to a poor single mother that would raise us alone, we'd never see the money that went down your throat
through the hole in your belly.
thirteen years old in the suburbs of Denver
standing in line for Thanksgiving dinner at the catholic Church. the servers wore crosses
to shield from the sufferance plaguing the others. Styrofoam plates, cafeteria tables charity reeks of cheap wine and pity
and I'm thinking of you. i do every year
when we count all our blessings
and wonder what we're doing here.
you're a disgrace to the concept of family
the priest won't divulge that fact in his homily and I'll stand up and scream
if the mourning remain quiet, you can deck out a lie in a suit but i won't buy it.
i won't join in the procession that's speaking their peace. using five dollar words while praising his integrity. and just cause he's gone it doesn't change the fact: he was a bastard in life thus a bastard in death.
This song reminds me of my father and the relationship we have. Although, I listened to it one time right after I got done talking to my mom about her father and this song reminds me more of her and her father, so I guess this song is more a theme song for her life. But I can connect to it as well. The beginning of the song reminds me of my father the most.
6. Tiny Vessels- This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
I spent two weeks in Silver lake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks,
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking,
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that I was telling
All the playful misspellings
and every bite I gave you left a mark
Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did, and so did I that day
All I see are dark Grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "Is something wrong?"
I think "You're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."
So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
and you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me (x2)
This song is another one that reminds me of a relationship that I've had before. Actually, this has happened a few times to me. He had everyone but himself convinced that he loved me, but we weren't ever happy. This song basically describes how our relationship went. Especially the
So when you ask "Is something wrong?"
I think "You're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."
part, because thats sort of the way we broke up. Only I suppose I was the one saying damn right instead of him. But this song very much so reminds me of him. We were together for almost two years. Hah.
7. Expo 86'- sometimes i think this cycle never ends
we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
and it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.
but if i move my place in line I'll lose.
and i have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.
i am waiting for something to go wrong.
i am waiting for familiar resolve.
sometimes it seems that i don't have the skills to recollect
the twists and turns of plot that turned us from lovers to friends
i'm thinking i should take that volume back up off the shelf
and crack it's weary spine and read to help remind myself
but if i move my place in line i'll lose.
and I have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.
i am waiting for something to wrong
i am waiting for familiar resolve
i am waiting for another repeat
another diet fed by crippling defeat
and i am waiting for that sense of relief
i am waiting for you to flee the scene
as if you held in your hand the smoking gun
and on the floor lay the one you said you loved.
and it's strange
they are all basically the same
so i don't ask names anymore.
sometimes i think this cycle never ends
we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again
and it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.
the squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse (x2)
This song basically describes my life on a daily basis. The way the song sounds, if you listen to it, and the lyrics, they just remind me a lot of myself and the way my life goes on a daily basis. "Another diet fed by crippling defeat" fits quite well sometimes.
